Sunday, June 11, 2006
When I win the lottery I'm hiring a personal shopper.
The problem is... I hate the shopping. I get to the mall and my brain goes numb. Nothing looks good, I hate trying things on, the prices make me ill... And don't even get me started on how much I hate shoe shopping above all other kinds of shopping.
But then when I go to get ready to go to work in the morning I'm bored with what I have. And when I get ready to out somewhere? I'm embarrassed. My girlfriends are all really stylish and adorable. I can't tell you how much I stress out about what I'm going to wear if I go out. Normally I'm a shorts, tank top, no makeup kind of girl. But going out? I have about 2-3 tops that I rotate and its embarrassing that I've shown up in the same white knit top for the last 4 parties I've been too, and the theater this last Friday, and then I washed it to wear it again today.
So today I bit the bullet. I knew it was a good shopping day when I managed to snag a much coveted shady spot in the parking lot. (we Arizonans will stop just short of a fist fight to get a shady spot) Then I braved the teeny-bopper Buckle store and found a top! One that's not sleeveless, so I could wear it to work, and it was only $24, which totally appeals to the cheapo in me. And if that weren't enough, I then found a bra to replace the white one I bought for my wedding 4 years ago! And then I managed to find a pair of shoes I adore, and they weren't $100! And not only that, they are WEDGES. Never thought I'd own some of those. And I'm only a half season behind!
I've decided its time for a mini makeover. I'm tired of feeling bad for not having cute earrings to wear out. Tired of Target shoes from 5 years ago. Tired of nothing but t-shirts and polos to wear to work.
So to anyone who's already thinking ahead to my birthday in a month? Please spare me another punishing trip to the mall and get me a cute pair of earrings, or a trendy necklace I can only wear with one outfit... ;-)
I think all this makeover thinking has something to do with this 10 year reunion thing. I graduated with a class of about 750 people, and I've been assigned 75 people to find. We all have grandiose ideas of being the one to walk into the reunion, the spotlight swings toward you and all heads turn. You hear people whispering, "Did THAT girl go to our high school? I would have remembered someone who looked like that." Yeah, I'm one of those hopefuls. But then the reunion committee. Lots of beautiful people! And successful people to boot! Then I started looking for my lost 75, and more beautiful people! Doctors, and lawyers, and TV stars, and dancers on Broadway...
And I know that looks aren't everything, I'm not stupid. I know that looks aren't supposed to be important, but they are. And me? I don't have the look. But I could!
So baby steps. Today I got a shirt. Maybe next time I'll get a whole outfit. Who knows, maybe by the time we get to October for the reunion I'll be ready for jewelry and good makeup.
In the meantime, the Veterans' Association is coming on Wednesday. Maybe if I just get rid of half my closet I'll have some incentive...
I'm Amanda. I'm an engineer in an industry full of men, a professional wedding and family portrait photographer, a firefighter's wife, a traveler, and a dogMa.